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Yesterday, I had the pleasure of meeting a friend whom I hadn't seen for an entire year...
If you know me, you probably are aware of my tendency to "reschedule" these meetings last minute due to my "old lady stay at home syndrome", but luckily I found the encouragement to get out of the house and socialize (When I say encouragement, I mean pizza).
Two pizzas and a couple of drinks in, the conversation started getting a little deeper when we finally got to my much feared topic...
SPOILER ALERT! (HERE GOES MY VERY FIRST DOCUMENTED EXISTENTIAL CRISIS!)
"so...what are you doing?"
"working." I said while awkwardly keeping a straight face, whilst starring into the great abyss that is (or has been) my life.
When I meant to take a "gap" year, the intention was to follow the typical Find Yourself journey. As foreshadowed by 100% of my lovely family and friends, that one year soon became two.
Two years of "drifting through life" as my company for last night's pizza would call it.
This is not to say I haven't accomplished any goals or had eye opening experiences. I did get a job doing something I never would expect doing in a million years, discovered my impatience for mindless drinking and clubbing, and how big my hatred towards routines are.
So, I guess I have discovered who I am in some level, but certainly not what I want to do!
Essentially, I am standing right where I was two years ago with a little more cash, better-informed opinions, and a driver's license.
...2014 better bring on HUGE changes.
Two years of "drifting through life" as my company for last night's pizza would call it.
This is not to say I haven't accomplished any goals or had eye opening experiences. I did get a job doing something I never would expect doing in a million years, discovered my impatience for mindless drinking and clubbing, and how big my hatred towards routines are.
So, I guess I have discovered who I am in some level, but certainly not what I want to do!
Essentially, I am standing right where I was two years ago with a little more cash, better-informed opinions, and a driver's license.
...2014 better bring on HUGE changes.
Perhaps the best thing about "writing your mind" on a blog, or wherever, is that allows people to read it and go: "Oh, my god! Me too!".
ReplyDelete:D welcome to the losers club!
DeleteWow here is for being a lousy friend. I didn't even know you had a blog.
ReplyDeleteMost people must have gone through the same 'life crisis'
I think its part of growing up and learning more about yourself. Not a lot of people search for the "meaning in life". they just 'live'. Go through life mechanically( doing the same thing every single day. Not wanting to change) and do what society expect them to do. Your more profound in your thoughts and the way you see life.
“I don’t know what I’m doing, or where I’m going, but I do know that I want to do whatever it is and get there soon.”
“Just that dwelling and planning is bullshit, you dwell on the past, you can’t move forward. Spend too much time planning for the future and you just push yourself backwards, or you stay stagnant in the same place all your life."
the quotes from the book edge of never.
ps: 2014! is a good year.... your in EU :)
Not quite sure what im going to do without you! :(
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